merry go round

Dulu aku cakap kat dia kalau tak percaya aku tak payah la dengan aku.

Dulu aku bengang gila kalau dia tak percaya kat aku.

Dulu dia tuduh aku macam-macam n maki aku gila-gila kalau aku kata nak keluar or keluar dengan kawan-kawan.

And aku pulak, mula-mula tahan n rase macam biasalah kan. Tapi lama-lama dah jadi makin menjadi-jadi. Sampai aku pun dah mula memaki sama. Jadinya bukan api bertemu air. But fire vs fire. Memang lagi parah la kebakaran kan.

Tapi...

Sekarang, aku pulak yang maki hamun dia kalau dia kata nak keluar.

sekarang aku lagi dasyat, sampai dia kata nak tdo pun aku tak percaya. hahaha. bengong.

Kadang-kadang bukan aku tak percaya. Aku percaya tapi ntah la kenapa kepala ni tanak terima yang hati percaya. Kenapa eh? Hmm Ego lah ape lagi. susah betul nak buang perasaan ego ni.

Aku sekarang dah macam dia dulu. Tapi lagi teruk. Aku tau macam mana dia rasa. Tapi entahlah. Meroyan ni susah betul nak hilang.

dream.

omaigod i want an i phone so badly!

i wish i can have one.

kalau ade duit banyak nak beli seratus i phone.

haahahaha

SHAFIKAH PARANOID

I think i am paranoid.

im just so scared to accept if my bf are lying to me.

its just a nightmare.

i become like a monster if he said that he wants to like go out with his friend or something.. anything as long as he mention he want to go out.. its freak me out like hell.

what i have in my head are what if he is flirting around or he is out with another girl. or he go to club.. im always have this stupud things in mind. i just cannot trust him..

uuurrgghhh what is the point being together then..

its frustrating! Like Hell!

500 Days of Summer - Beautiful

I've watched this like 100 times but never get bored with the story..

its just something..

even though its presented in non linear narrative but its just beautiful as it is..

everything about this film is just beautiful..

the narrative, the script, the character, the actor, the actress, the set, the locations, Summer's wardrobe, THE SOUNDTRACK!

All these is just amazing..

OMG im totally in love with this movie since the first time i've watched it.

Everything in the film is just about art.. i mean the story about greeting card writer but studied architecture before. and the girl that obsessed with painting (as we can see at Summer's house that full with painting) and music. Everything is art.

But i do notice something about continuity in this film that a little off.

At the scene where Tom draw buildings on Summer's arm. If u see the line that he draw at the 1st shot of drawing scene and the shot when the drawing's done, its look like the first line that he draw before disappeared. Haha i dont know. Maybe im wrong. Buts its not too obvious thou...

But whatever it is i just love the film like sooo much!

:-)

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, "thats her"....

unknown.

I NEED A BREAK!

hahahaha menggelabah baru start sem dah need a break bagai...

but this directing course really drive me craaaaazzzyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!

macam tak penah amik plak before ni kan, tapi kali ni its diff...

the fear meter is getting high...

dunno why!!

STOP!

new directions said dont stop believing. but im gonna quit believing now. at first i thought its okay if im not gonna get a chance to hold it, but at least it will be on the palms of my hands for a while but it seems like it is not even touching my skin and it just fly away. far from me.

so, stop is the answer...

n that is how u deal with someone who wants to fly without any interference.

but im good.. ;)