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Keliru

berkali kali terluka
orang yang sama
adakah ini cinta
ataukah gila
mungkinkah juga nafsu semata

butakah cinta
butakah aku
butakah kamu
butakah kita

cintakah aku
cintakah kamu
cintakah kita

mampukah aku
mampukah kamu
mampukah kita
melawan gelora
menidakkan rasa

keliru. itu aku.

Gulp!

Haih. sempat ke nak abiskan ni. Keep asking sempat ke tak tapi tak buat buat pun. haha. Typical me. hihihi. aihhh susahnyaaa nak focus. :(

What was it?

So what's the plan now?
So what was it to you
Were we or weren't we?
Did it come back for you?
Now there you finally see

It's already been gone too long

I shoudn't have pick up the phone
I'm asking permission to pretend
That we've moved on

Empty,
Is what you'll find in here
Empty... is you'll see,
A lot of things I've offered you

What am I to you?
Was I or wasn't I?
So what you said was true,
Did you or didnt you?

Was it love to you?

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Empty.

Tak perlu dirungkai sesuatu yang terlalu misteri.
Tak perlu dicari, sesuatu yang tak mungkin ditemui.
Tak perlu mengharap sesuatu yang tak pasti.
Tak perlu memberi jika tidak dihargai.
Tak perlu mencinta jika tidak dicintai.
Tak perlu merindu jika tak diingati.
Tak perlu menanti jika semuanya sudah terhenti.
Tak perlu merintih jika tidak didengari.
Tak perlu menagih jika tak dipeduli.
Teruskan berjalan wahai kaki.
Teruskan berdiri di kaki sendiri.
Moga dapat mengubati hati.
Walau tak mungkin terisi lagi.
Yeahh. Maybe i should just let it empty. 




-Perca perca nukilan hati pada 4.47am dikala hati sedang berduka.-

i guess this is the end.

Hmm. at this hour i should be doing my thesis. dimana masa yang ada sangatlah suntuk. tp tak boleh nak fokus. Theres too crowded at twitter nowadays. i think i just cant tweet what i really wanted to say now. i just dont know why. maybe this is the only place i can babble about anything cz i dont think ppl will read this. ehee.

basically i am so sad rite now. I just so confused. what shud i do. how shud i really feel. i cant even think. why is it so hard for him to understand. i just want him to show me that he really love me. i dont want to hear i love you. show it to me. i want to see it. for once.

I WILL BE DEAD!

Fuhhh dah lama tak bukak blog tetiba bukak theres a totally new look and aku jd bangang kejap cari mana button nak post new entry. haha. Dengan keadaan broadband yang kesiputan maka menambahkan peratusan nak marah. 

Okay apa nak cerita ekk. yeahh pasal thesis. homaigod aku berada di tahap yang paling kritikal skarang ni. masih berada di chapter 2. fuhhhhhh mmg semak otak dengan theoritical framework ni. uwaaaaaaa. susah nyaaa nak construct. and what make it worst adalah procrastinates la apa lagi. ohh no actually sbb paling utama ialah malassss! idk why aku jadi sangat dan teramatlah malas skarang ni nak buat thesis ni. dah tak de masa dah ni sebenarnya tapi still main2 lagi. taknak TL. Nak grad on time. :( im so scared sebenarnyaaaa. tp kkdg takut je tp tkde inisiatif pon susah gak kan. bhahahahaha

kenapalahh jadi malas sgt ni. setelah dikaji selidik rupanya puncanya adalah aku takde kelas and cuma kena buat thesis ni je semata2 so apa lagi lemau to the max la kan. and most of my friends semuanya macam tu. 

Next week aku dah kena hantar dua chapter sekaligus. now aku masih lagi terkedek2 buat chap 2. damn! walaupun chapter 3 tu org kata sikit je and boleh buat over a night but stillllll!! ergghhh what is happening to me!!!!! i cant focussss! arghh. now im a complete idiot. i am the epitome of the best procrastinator. hahahah. *idk if i used the term correctly* but yeahhh who cares. hahaaha. 

Ya Allah i really need to buckle up!!! 

So. Bye! :)

New Addiction

Oh yeahh lupa nak update pasal guitar. hehehehe. i dont know why and since when i am so interested in guitar and playing guitar. Rasa macam seronok sangat bila tgk org boleh main gitar cz aku mcm dapat rasa yang bila you can play music and sing, u really can hilangkan tekanan sikit. So i decided to buy a guitar and i bought white color guitar. Heeee. Learning to play a guitar is not an easy as i thought. its a lot of practice needed and the most important thing i guess is patience, hardwork and talent. without that u'll never be able to play guitar. So now i managed to mesmerized all the simple chord that always use in a lots of songs butttt sampai skrg tak pandai strumming. sangat susah bagi aku adalah strumming and plucking. Kat sini la talent and jiwa music seseorang diuji aku rasa. sbb strumming and plucking ni mmg tkde salah and betul, takde sape boleh ajar kau sbnarnya aku rasa. semua kena ikut naluri sendiri how u wanna follow the beat of the songs. im still learning and thats the hardest part. Till now i can play price tag, kau ilhamku and grenade, but with all down strokes only. :(

Haihh i shud be sleeping by now since i got class tomorrow. bye Assalamualaikum. :)

Random

Fuhh dah lama rasanya tak update blog nih. Hihihi. sebenarnya selalu rasa nak update n macam banyak sgt benda nak cerita tapi bila bukak mesti mcm tatau mana nak mula. I am indeed very bad at writing and story telling. *sigh*. That is why i feel like microblogging macam twitter tu lagi best sbb bebila masa boleh update and 140 characters tkdela sikit sgt. Still boleh tampung thoughts aku yang sentiasa random nih. Hmm i got class at 9.30am tomorrow. I guess its better if im off to bed now. Chiow! :)